Friday, February 24, 2017

I HATE GOODBYES :( (Feb 20, 2017)

Here are just a few of the people that I have really come to love and adore this transfer! Companions, investigators, members, recent converts, less actives. SO MANY GOOD PEOPLE. ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

DO I REALLY HAVE TO GO HOME? ใ… ใ…  I can't believe that my time as a set apart missionary is almost over. There really is no way to describe a mission. So many new experiences, hard times, good times, happy times, sad times, feeling-alone times, feeling-so-much-love times...I have learned so much from this past year and a half, and I hope that I have become more of the person God wants me to be. 

This week we met a new investigator, and I can't even tell you how much I love her. She is a referral from a member. This lady's name is JYR. She is in her mid thirties and she is single and has some pretty serious health problems. AND SHE IS SO INCREDIBLE. As a missionary, I have been able to feel love for so many different people. However, I think the time I felt God's love the strongest was this past week when we met with this new investigator two different times. She is so genuine, faithful, sincere, and she needs this gospel so much. I wish I could describe how I felt...I had just barely met this sister, but with all my heart I loved her! And I could feel that that love was coming directly from God.  And I could also feel how badly she needed this gospel, and how Jesus Christ could heal her broken heart. 

Then later, during my personal study, I read this verse in Ether and I felt like it explained a bit of my feelings about Christ and how He could heal JYR, and all of us, really. The scriptures are Ether 9:35&10:1. These scriptures are describing a drought ending, but when I read it, I compared it to JYR's spiritual and emotional drought, and how Christ can end that drought. "And it came to pass that when they had humbled themselves sufficiently before the Lord he did send rain upon the face of the earth; and the people began to REVIVE again, and there began to BE FRUIT in the north countries, and in all the countries round about. And the Lord did SHOW FORTH HIS POWER unto them in PRESERVING them from famine.........Wherefore, Shez began to BUILD UP A BROKEN PEOPLE." 

Christ nurtures, revives, heals, and flourishes our lives if we let Him. He builds up a broken people. And I am so thankful for Him. I love Him and I have come to know Him more through representing Him this past year and half. It has been the biggest privilege for me. I hope to honor Him through my actions my whole life through.

See you soon!!!

Beckett Jamae

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Annyong!!! (February 13, 2017)

Hey Hey Hey!

Sister K and I after mission tour.
I really loved Mission Tour this week with the Yamashitas. They are SO INCREDIBLY POSITIVE! I loved their attitudes and perspectives. One of my favorite things I learned was, "Make every day a great day." We really are the ones who choose our attitudes. Our attitudes are always a choice, and I think our attitudes are actually one of our very hardest choices. It reminds me of a talk by Elder Ballard where he said to be a creator of circumstances, not a creature of circumstances. Part of our God-given agency is the gift to choose our reactions and responses and our attitude. I tried to apply that this week as I got rejected over and over again on the streets by people. Sometimes it can be surprising how rude people can be! But I chose not to let the numberless rejections get me down. Instead I shook it off and thought of Jesus and went and talked to other people. Also an investigator dropped us this week, and that also hurt, but we hope and pray that she will have the desire to meet with the missionaries again in the future.

My old mission leader in Mokpo bought and mailed me a ๋ถ•์–ด๋นต maker! WOohoo! Hahahah SO FUNNY!
What an awesome guy.
Everything seems kind of blurry and fake right now, I really can't believe that I am going home in ten days. It kind of terrifies me. I love being a missionary and I love testifying of Christ and I love serving in the same country with my little brother and I love Koreans and I love Korean food and I love working hard every day and I love so many other things, too. But God is never changing, and I know He will guide my life after the mission just as He is right now.  I am giving my all every day and trying my best to follow the Savior and show Him my love and appreciation for Him. I will forever be grateful for my mission!

I love you all so much!! Got to go! Oh hey, for next week can you send me if I need to do anything special for customs at the airport? Also dad said he sent an email but I never got it, just pics. :( I love you all lots and lots. Have a good week! And ESPECIALLY TO OUR NATEY CHAD!! Happy baptism!! I heard we are only an hour and a half away right now by train...It kinda hurts my little heart! Wish I could support you at the baptism! But I will in my thoughts and prayers. Love you!

Sister Beckett

Allie's Mom here:  She will be speaking in our sacrament meeting on Sunday, February 26, at 9 a.m. We can't wait to have her come home!! Let me know if you need the address. ๐Ÿ˜€

Me and SDY and Ping Su!!!! So delicious!!!!

Friday, February 10, 2017

Mah Week (Jan 22, 2017)

Me and my cute companions
I don't know if Satan has been working on me really hard lately, or if I really am just getting worse and worse at being a missionary!! This week I have felt like quite a failure at everything I do (especially at speaking Korean and following the Holy Ghost) so it has been a bit of a tough week. Stat-wise, our week was awesome! And we saw a lot of miracles this week, including three new investigators. I am fairly sure that two will get baptized!! They are adorable 20 year old girls...twins! I am excited to see them progress. I love them already! But despite the stats success, I have been feeling a little down. Here is a special experience I had this week that helped me know that Heavenly Father hadn't forgotten me:

(Journal Entry from 01.17.17)
Yesterday we met with our investigator ๊ด€. She is adorable! And since December she's read the BOM all the way to the end of Alma. So golden and sweet, but the only problem is that she works on Sundays. Anyway, she is a miracle. But being in a trio can be a bit difficult. Also yesterday  when we taught her, a member came and taught with us. So it was four Koreans, and me (odd numbers are hard!) And they were all talking so fast and always looking at each other, never me, and my companions were teaching so great, and I felt like an idiot. All day I had been thinking and pondering and praying about this lesson -- but then at the lesson I realized that I was 100% not needed, and so I felt sad. During the lesson people just kept talking, and I felt useless. Of course I wasn't mad at my companions and the member, I was proud of them and thankful that they were doing so well. But I started thinking and wondering and praying again, "God, why do you want me here? Why did you have me transfer to a new area into a trio on my last transfer? I don't feel needed. I want to serve Thee but I am not even needed here. If there is something you want me to say in this lesson, please help me to know. If it is best for the investigator if I don't talk, then I won't talk. But please give me an opportunity to do missionary work." I prayed like that throughout the lesson, and by the end of the lesson I had probably only talked/taught for one minute. I thought, "hmm. This must be the answer to my prayer. God didn't need me tonight."  I KNOW TALKING ISN'T IMPORTANT AND THAT THE SPIRIT IS THE TEACHER. But I felt like I was an un-needed instrument in God's hands. So it was a bit of a sad night. We left the lesson and on the way to ride the subway (perks of Daejeon!) GOD LET ME BE HIS TOOL. He sent a direct answer to my prayers. He showed me that He needed me and I wasn't useless. We were power walking through the station and all of the sudden I heard quick steps behind me and a voice say," Are you also a student here? I turned around and there was a beautiful, tall, bright and smiley girl named L from Singapore!! We talked and rode the subway together, and talked some more. Probably for 20 minutes And I was/am so thankful for that opportunity -- I could feel that God was using me in His hands. I felt the Spirit testifying through me as I talked and shared my testimony of God and Christ. She kept saying, "Wow, this is amazing." She was a special answer to my prayer! Unfortunately, she doesn't have texting except for Kakao talk. So (once again perks of Daejeon) we used Sister Madsen's iPhone, found her on facebook, and invited her to lunch (member lesson with Sister Madsen! Sweet!) I hope and pray she says yes. I know God hears our prayers, knows our hearts, and truly has a plan for each of us."

We still haven't gotten an answer from L, I really hope she answers. But whether or not she answers, SHE was an answer to me from God, telling me that He still remembered me and loved me. 

Sister Beckett

Hey Hey Hey! Happy...Tuesday! (Feb 6, 2017)

We have seen SO MANY miracles lately that I just can't believe it. When I first got here, we only had one investigator, and I kinda thought that this would be a long transfer of finding. But we have been working hard and God has been so generous in blessing us...we now have ten investigators! And  we are pretty sure that three of them will be coming to church this week. :D

I want to share about our newest investigator, Sister Y. We were waiting for the subway one night and I saw her sitting alone on her motorized wheelchair waiting for the subway. The Holy Ghost prompted me to go talk to her, so I did. We started talking and she was SO SWEET. She is probably in her late forties or early fifties and she is beautiful! We started talking and we couldn't stop. Her brother used to meet the missionaries in Busan, so she had seen a Book of Mormon before. I was able to explain to her what the BoM was, and I taught her that it was Christ's teachings in the Americas. She thought it was so interesting, and she wanted to read about it, so I showed her the part when Christ visited the Nephites in 3 Nephi. She was so excited to receive the Book of Mormon, and she said enthusiastically, "Books make the best gifts!" We exchanged phone numbers and later scheduled an appointment to meet. And we DID meet again! Yesterday! She is SO PREPARED for fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ. She came and had already read 3 Nephi 11. She said there are things similar to the bible, but also new things that she has never heard before. She is currently attending the Presbyterian Church, but she has been switching religions a lot, trying to find the right one. (YA FOUND IT, SWEETIE! :D ) We will be meeting again tonight, and she said that by tonight she will read the first five chapters of 1 Nephi!  She also referred her daughter and niece to us who have English Interest. They live in Daegu and Busan, so we will have to refer them to the Busan mission. Anyway...SHE IS A MIRACLE!! God is always putting prepared people in our paths, which is why we always need to talk to everyone and be excited about sharing God's happy message.

One thing I really loved that Sister Y shared with us about Christ (she has really strong faith) was a parable about Christ holding on to us. She said sometimes we think of our relationship with Him like holding hands, or pulling somebody up by the hands, but it is not. If we hold hands with someone or lift someone by the hands and one person lets go, it is difficult for the other person to keep holding on. So instead of comparing our relationship with Christ as holding hands, it is more like Christ is grasping our forearm, and we are grasping His. If we slip up, make mistakes and let go, He can still hold on to us and pull us up, and we easily re-grasp His forearm. He can always have a firm grip on us, even if we choose to let go. He never lets go. He never gives up! And when we choose to repent and change, we can easily hold back on to Him. He is always there to pull us up. I really loved that example that she shared with us, so I wanted to share it, too. I am so thankful for a loving Savior who never gives up on anyone. As followers of Jesus Christ, that is what we need to do, too! We never give up on anyone, including ourselves. Christ is holding on to us always.

Sister Beckett

Last P-Day S invited us over to her house for a Solnar (New Year) meal. It was so fun! Here are some pics.

January 29, 2017

Last P-day we met with S and her mom. They took us to the fanciest traditional Korean restaurant. They are so kind--genuinely kind and loving people. It is like I am already BFFs with S.

This week was a week of miracles!! We have two new investigators who we met for English interest, but they also believe in God but don't attend a church. AND guess what?! They live right across from the mission home and church. SCORE!! We are hoping to get them to church asap!

Our other investigators, ๊น€__ and ๊น€_ the 20 year old twins, are also doing great. I love seeing their interest and earnestness in learning the gospel. ๋‚˜__ especially has a lot of interest in the gospel. She takes notes and highlights the pamphlets when we teach. And from watching her eyes and body language, she is listening with all of her heart. They have both tried praying for the first time, and are keeping commitments great. Our focus right now is getting them to church and building relationships with members. I think God sometimes gives us a glimpse of other people's potential and the love God has for them. I have felt that a lot with these twins. I really believe that both will eventually get baptized and become strong and faithful members of the church. I hope and pray so!

I absolutely loved the world wide missionary broadcast. From watching and listening to and learning from the leaders of the church, I could feel that they truly were inspired from God. My testimony that this church is true was strengthened by hearing their testimonies, watching their leadership, and listening to them speak powerfully, gracefully, and confidently. From the new rule changes I also feel a great new sense of responsibility and trust. I want to use this new schedule to maximize our time and efforts in serving the Lord. The new changes have also helped me realize that God teaches us line upon line and precept upon precept.  We can always become more effective and efficient and we always have room to learn, grow, and change, and the leaders of our church don't try to hide that. They are also always learning through trial and error.  That is how we can become more like the Savior, trying our best to do what we think is right, and learning from our mistakes. I hope and pray that I can represent the Savior well to everybody that I meet. I really do want to become like He is and love like He does. I still have a long way to go. But I am thankful for His patience.

Also, we have met S.D. (the foreign exchange student from Utah)  three times now, and we are meeting her again for lunch today. I love her with all my heart! Unfortunately, she does not have interest in learning the gospel right now, but I definitely think that she will later. I was so scared to directly ask her if we could share the gospel with her. It gave me a glimpse of how member missionary work can be hard! I didn't want her answer to affect our relationship, but I also wanted to share the gospel with her because I know it would bless her so much, and also it is my missionary purpose and privilege! So after lots and lots of roleplaying with my companions, I finally asked her if we could teach her more about the gospel of Jesus Christ that has blessed us us much, but I also assured her that no matter her answer that we would still be friends. Unfortunately, she said no to listening to our message. But seeds have been planted, and I think they will continue to grow. 

Sister Beckett

This is pretty cool--this is in downtown Daejeon. The street has a camera and a big screen that shows the people walking beneath it. Here I am with one of our investigators.